I could never do this alone.

My Husband keeps me grounded, helps me fight my fights, and loves me unconditionally.

My mom questions my decisions in a loving way, keeps me on the path of good-person-ness, and loves me unconditionally.

My sister makes me laugh at myself, and tells me how it really is, and loves me unconditionally.

My father checks in on me, listens to my life as i describe it, and loves me unconditionally.

My stepfather is always there when i need him, and loves me unconditionally.

My friends are unequivocally awesome, and love me under the condition that I’m treating myself right. otherwise…oh the sassing that ensues.

these people are all arms of a the weird, ungainly octopus that is my life. I work with addicts, many of whom have damaged their relationships with their families and loved ones to the point which, left to their own devices, they may never recover. My job is to focus on the person in treatment, but part of that job is allowing them the option to make good decisions when it comes to their kin. I know from firsthand experience that you can’t always get back the friendships you have let go in your illness. I have Facebook friends who used-to-be, that I never got back after my hospitalization and treatment. Frankly, i miss them but rarely. Fair-whether and all that.

But when you lose friends, no matter how fickle, there is a period of mourning. I am sad that people lost trust in me, although they had every right to do so. I am sad that they chose to cut ties rather than fight it out, and I’m sorry i didn’t mean enough to them to battle along side me. I’m sorry for them being unable to see me now, happy, calm, sane.

I’m sorry my brain made me less valuable to you, quitters.

Good riddance.

Oh and my dogs and cat, keep me happy and loved, and love me unconditionally.

New friends are awesome, but they’re icing on a truly delicious cake. I’m set. I have a support system. My love and friendship is overwhelmingly taken care of. I’m a lucky, only-a-little-bit-resentful-of-assholes, beloved girl.

Thanks for being on the team, loyal reader.