Comedy is all about timing. Timing is all about self awareness. Self awareness is all about honesty. 

I haven’t written much lately because I don’t want to get into trouble or be unethical, but it’s important for me to note certain things as they happen, that’s the whole point of this blog. I have been alienating those close to me with my bad temper and mercurial mood lately, and I think that means the new meds aren’t working. I’ve been loathe to go to work, painfully anxious, bitchy and brazen. I’ve damaged my career, my relationships, and my own self worth. I feel like a gigantic ass. 

Remember this, Jady, remember so it doesn’t happen again. 

Honestly, I hate how I feel right now, and I’m taking it out on my friends and family. I’m being a spoiled little brat and I hate that part even worse. It sucks to realize you’re not that great person you want to be. I’m not a helpless victim here, I am living the consequences of my own behavior. Med-altered behavior, sure, but mine all the same. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, bipolar is no excuse for bad manners. No matter how messed up you are when you do stupid things, it’s your responsibility to fix them, because no one else is going to do it for you. 

No one else will un-fuck your life. 

Now…enjoy this picture of me and Dante while I try hard to fix my shit. 

Wish me luck, loyal reader.